Work, Work, Work
I am so tired. I need to invent a new word that's worse than tired.
I set up a server today. It was day 2 of the build, and I should have finished, but some things went wrong, as does happen with computers ( :-o ) sometimes. So I pushed my brain all day, sat without moving a whole lot for far too long, (for the second day in a row) and now I'm just so beyond tired that tired is a dot in my rear-view mirror.
And I get to do more of it tomorrow.
But I had my moment today. A lady at the school where I was working said to a technician sitting with me, "How does she do that? I couldn't ever get my head anywhere near that."
Yeah, okay, sometimes I don't acknowledge that what I do takes a lot of skill. When you just do it day to day, you start to feel like it's nothing special. But hey, it is!
And even though the server isn't quite finished, and I still have more to do tomorrow, I did a good (LONG) job today. So I'll take that. :-)
Learning Limits
You would think after all this time that I would know what my limits are, especially physically. But for some reason, that seems to be beyond me.
I know when I've done too much, but I don't seem to know when I'm *almost* to that point. When will I get it, if ever?
Today was my 'something different' day -- I had a trade show to attend in London. So today was hurrying to catch trains, carrying heavy bags, walking for miles, and not getting to sit down much except for on (part of) the train journey home.
Now I knew I was tired, but I didn't realise just how tired. But why not? One of my (much) younger colleagues said to me on the train back, "I am wiped. I'm going to just go home and crash."
But I get home and think I can be normal. Suffice it to say, I didn't carry on long with that insanity.
One bath and some rest time later, I almost feel human, but I can sense an early night coming on.
One day, I have to believe, I'll 'get it' and know how far I can go before 'too far' comes.
About Me
Leanne BennettI'm an American living in England, married to a Brit and the mother of three children. I work for the local council, building and maintaining servers and networks for primary schools.
I think my background, my citizenship, my experiences and my location give me a unique take on life. Herein are my musings on such...
