I Don't Know What I Want
One song I really love is Paramore's I Caught Myself. I realise I'm way too old to like this music, but I honestly don't care. For me, it's the song, really regardless of performer. If the song touches me, I like it, and I'm sticking with that.
One poignant line from the song that really hits me is "I don't know what I want." How often I've felt this way! Even when I've been in situations that some other people might envy, I have found myself thinking, "This isn't what I want."
But then, the inevitable question, "What do I want?"
When I graduated from University, we were given one free visit to the Career Counseling Service on campus. When I met with the Counselor, she told me that in previous years they had told graduating classes that they'd change companies at lease 10 times in their working lifetime. For my graduating class, she said, they were telling graduates that we were likely to change careers 10 times in our working lifetime.
For me this has pretty much held true. Since holding my first 'real' job, I've been:
A preschool worker
An insurance broker's secretary
An insurance claims processor
A secretary/interpreter (for a deaf boss)
A secretary/tour guide/interpreter at a University
An information specialist at an information clearinghouse
A software trainer
An IT Teacher
A Network Manager
A 3rd Line Server Technician
But I actually studied and planned to be a Psychologist.
And now I'd like to be a writer.
Good thing I'm a born 'Jack of all Trades'. (I'd like to believe I don't fit the 'Master of None' that usually follows, and honestly I think I've done a good job at all the things I've been.)
So the Counselor was right, and I may not be done yet.
Well, I guess if Grandma Moses can start a painting career in her 70's, I certainly won't let (my much lower) age stop me from doing what I want to do! :-)
Now I just need to be sure what that is. And I'm pretty clear I do know. (At least for now. ;-) )
About Me
Leanne BennettI'm an American living in England, married to a Brit and the mother of three children. I work for the local council, building and maintaining servers and networks for primary schools.
I think my background, my citizenship, my experiences and my location give me a unique take on life. Herein are my musings on such...
