Learning Limits
You would think after all this time that I would know what my limits are, especially physically. But for some reason, that seems to be beyond me.
I know when I've done too much, but I don't seem to know when I'm *almost* to that point. When will I get it, if ever?
Today was my 'something different' day -- I had a trade show to attend in London. So today was hurrying to catch trains, carrying heavy bags, walking for miles, and not getting to sit down much except for on (part of) the train journey home.
Now I knew I was tired, but I didn't realise just how tired. But why not? One of my (much) younger colleagues said to me on the train back, "I am wiped. I'm going to just go home and crash."
But I get home and think I can be normal. Suffice it to say, I didn't carry on long with that insanity.
One bath and some rest time later, I almost feel human, but I can sense an early night coming on.
One day, I have to believe, I'll 'get it' and know how far I can go before 'too far' comes.
Something Different
I have a 'field trip' from work tomorrow. It's not everyone's idea of exciting, but I'm quite happy about it; I'm attending a trade show in London. A good few of my colleagues are like, "Ehhhh, another trade show.", which is fair enough. But for me, it's a chance to do something completely different, see some interesting things and pick up a few trinkets. (Mostly pens and rulers with big logos on them, but still.) And attending is definitely *something different*.
I so often find myself craving 'something different'. Routine, for me, is tough. 'Same old, same old' just kills me. When there's no variety I find myself just bored and feeling like I'm spiralling downward. But when I get to do something different -- wahey!
It often seems silly in a way, because sometimes the 'something different' can be a job that's repetitive, or even a task that someone else would find boring or dull. But, to me, the 'different' part seems to be the key. I'll often happily do an administrative task (not my normal line of work) even for an enitre day, just because it's a change.
That's one thing I really enjoy about my job -- there's often a lot of variety. One day I might be out at a site doing a set job, another day I'm in the office fixing whatever puzzle comes up next, another day I'm writing up documentation, and so on. As long as things keep changing, I'm usually a pretty happy bunny.
So roll on, trade show! I'm definitely ready for a little something different!
About Me
Leanne BennettI'm an American living in England, married to a Brit and the mother of three children. I work for the local council, building and maintaining servers and networks for primary schools.
I think my background, my citizenship, my experiences and my location give me a unique take on life. Herein are my musings on such...
